We’re on a roll…and the choice is yours

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Each choice we make in life is a step in the direction our lives will take.

The biggest choice one has to make is do we travel towards the best version of ourselves or do we remain bogged down within ourselves held captive by our fears.

I have chosen the path of being the best version of me that I can be…

Which means showing up for my life and speaking my truth…

There are those out there who will not like me speaking my truth…and will do much in their power to shut me down…all I can say to that is…🖕🖕🏻🖕🏼🖕🏽🖕🏾🖕🏿.

Showing up…means setting up a nightly routine so I am refreshed and ready for the day and not dragging my ass like an old tired dog. I won’t say – get up at the same time everyday as I already do that…my wee mouser dog requires insulin injections twice a day at the same time every day. I’m notorious for staying up until 3 AM as I have issues with turning my brain off if you will.

Showing up…means working daily at my business especially when I really don’t feel like it and would rather curl up with a good book to pass the time.

Showing up…means living in my head less and living in the world me.

Showing up…means leaving my comfort zone and doing the things that need doing even if they are icky…because that’s the job.

Showing up…means embracing the fact that growing old ain’t for the faint at heart.

Showing up…means embracing who I am currently and forming me into who I want to be.

Showing up…means accepting others more and judging others less.

Showing up…means cutting myself some slack when I fall down.

Showing up…means….letting me…be myself.

It’s time to show up…

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Connecting to my best version of Me…

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Questions posted to me in the challenge I have been honoured to be a part of…

(My answers are below each question…)

If there were no limits on my infinite potential, infinite wisdom, and soulful living…

What Would Be Going On?

I would be running my own business, sharing what I love on all levels.

Who Have You Become?

Someone unfettered by what society (and my family) deem I should be doing with my life…

What Do Your Days Look Like?

Meaningful and Happy

How Do You Feel Most Consistently?

Content

What Are Your Passions?

Helping people; teaching people; making a difference; making today better than yesterday and tomorrow better than today.

What Lights You Up?

Sharing my talents with folk; spending time learning about people (who don’t suck).

How Do You Treat Yourself, And Those Around You?

With dignity and respect (especially the ones I don’t like – I am working on this)

What Does Your Body Look and Feel Like?

Better than I do today…even some relief from constant pain would be an improvement.

How Do You Make Money?

By teaching my craft; sharing what I love; helping people.

How Much Money Do You Make?

Enough to pay the bills, have a few ‘pennies’ saved for a rainy day…with enough left over for a pint at the pub. Money doesn’t drive me…it never has.

What Would Be Different Than It Is Now?

I would be further along in my goals.

Connecting to the best version of you doesn’t happen overnight…but it can happen…but you need to put in the work…as do I.

Reconnecting with You…

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We reconnect every day, in all sorts of ways…

But how often do we reconnect with ourselves?

Probably not very bloody often…and I am no different.

Our days are busy….as we live in captivity to activity. Society tells us that unless we’re constantly doing ‘something’ then we are somehow less. So we load up our schedules running from one activity to the next (this doesn’t include your job…).

How often do we stop and take even the briefest moment to check in on our own wellbeing?

Do we ignore the chronic back pain and tell ourselves it’ll go away on its own? Or justify ignoring it because of money? Do we short change ourselves sleep because of all the things we think have to get done within the day?

I know I do…

And you know what…this way of thinking is complete and total bollocks. Ignoring the stuff that isn’t quite right, or at all right leads to getting run down…either physically, mentally, emotionally.

Connecting to yourself – by this I mean connecting to the best version of you – is not a frivolous undertaking, but rather an investment into realizing everything you are meant for.

Procrastination…and showing up…

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This has been a big piece of resistance in my life as well…

Fed by the doubts and the long term conditioning that has been going on in my life.

Getting the energy to get going on something requires effort…and ambition. I know there is some negative connotations to ambition; usually due to experiences that have happened in the past where people have used their ambition in a less than stellar way. Where one person’s ambition resulted in someone else’s undoing.

Yet ambition can also be a good thing…even a great thing. Ambition is what gets all those half done projects done around the house…

It is also what is required to get your business going…

Your business won’t happen over night…and it won’t happen without you getting things done in regards to your business. Even if it’s just networking, what you put into your business is what you get out of it.

I know it’s hard…I struggle some days to get going and to get done what needs to be done, especially on crap days where all I really want to do is curl up with a cuppa and a good book.

It comes down to showing up…

Showing up can mean many things to many people…

Showing up for me means showing up for my life…my personal as well as professional…

Showing up isn’t as complicated as it sounds but the reward can be pretty gratifying.

It can mean…instead of staying in your pj’s all day…it’s pulling on a pair of sweatpants…or instead of the sweats…it’s jeans…and so forth…you get the idea.

This statement doesn’t include those battling mental health issues; your struggle is much more epic in scope. I know that sometimes just getting out of bed takes all your spoons. My hope is that as days pass…it takes less spoons to get out of bed. If you need help…please do call someone…anyone…because people are listening.

Showing up means being present in the moment even as you visualize the future. It means embracing your current situation even as you strive to change it. Even if the situation isn’t idea…you’re there because you are meant to learn from it, for every experience both good and bad are tools to help you become who you are meant to be.

It’s time to start showing up…

2 Years…

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That’s how long it’s been since I have actually held a long term job…

Two years since I have been forced to re-evaluate my life and how I need to do life…the new normal if you will.

This past July I decided to start my own direct selling business as well as offering services to people for items they may require such as cards; wedding invitations; holiday packaging…etc. It’s scary to head out into the unknown…especially if you end up gripped…crippled by fear of the future…and of truly letting go of the past.

Letting go of the past is hard…I am currently in a challenge to do just that…and I will tell you first hand that it WILL leave you raw…cause you will be opening some unhealed and in a lot of our cases…gapping, gory wounds…wounds that have festered…rotting our souls with poison. Yet as with physical wounds that need to be cleaned of infection; so too does the infections in our souls. Infections that are the result of abuse, neglect, of losing our hope, our trust and our faith in ourselves. Last night I put voice to all the things that spin inside my head that has held me back the last 6 months from really gaining a foot hold in where I want to be and who I want to be. It was terrifying…and liberating all in one go. It is my goal to reconnect my faith and trust in myself.

I will keep you posted on my journey…

Peace.

I am afraid of…

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What I have become…

Since May….I have somehow misplaced my Joie-de-Vivre…

Actually misplaced isn’t the correct word…

I have LOST it…

I HAVE FUCKING LOST MY JOIE-DE-VIVRE!!!!

Instead…my joy has been sucked away by all the negative thoughts that have been sent my way since May 22…the day of my last post.

Lost to the overwhelming voices of those I hold dear in the effort to decide what I should be doing with my life…including how I run my business.

I am not sure how I let this happen…

I have never been one to actually give a fuck…nor even a rat’s ass about what anyone else thought (years of attempted bullying at school…I took no shit then…not sure why I am taking anyone’s shit now…) and yet as I find myself embarking on being self-employed I find that I care a lot about what people think.

Now…

Now…I am frozen in place by doubts…about the voices that everyone hears saying we’ll fail…

But no more I tell you…

NO MORE!!!

I have joined a challenge that will help me free myself from this crippling resistance…

Free myself from the crippling fear of the unknown…

It is time to take back my JOIE-DE-VIVRE!!!

Whatever it takes!!!

 

 

Get A How-To Manual…

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DIY…

I love DIY…

So much fun…

However…I still grab a manual…

Manuals are essential in the world of DIY…even if all you are making are hair dodads. At least to start; so you have an idea of how to apply chemicals and in which order you are to apply them…and most important…what not to do. From there you can make it your own, tweak it to your liking, add things…subtract things…substitution. The possibilities are endless in the world of DIY.

 

I will note that some things require a professional…like plumbing; heating; drywall and electrical…save yourself the aggravation and hire a professional.