New Frontiers…

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After being unemployed for over a year…I have finally found employment!!!

Super excited!!

It’s a short contract…and that’s okay.

I’ll take it…

It’s dipping the toes back in the lake as it were…to help me get use to dealing with people again, as the last year I have spent mostly talking to the dogs…and my mom about the dogs…and their poop. It happens…dogs, as do we humans, should they have a malaise of some kind it’s usually evident in their poop. It is also indicative if my girls have had a dietary indiscretion (pretty sure they both managed to eat a raisin…which is seriously bad for them…and if it wasn’t a raisin then it was the bacon…)

I am hopeful about this new opportunity…

While I am hopeful I still struggle with the negative thoughts in my mind…

The ones that say I am going to fail at this job…

The ones that say I am rubbish and will be fired immediately…

I have to work hard to get rid of those thoughts…they are deeply rooted in my mind…

I know in my heart I will overcome these thoughts…

It is HARD work…I will do it…

 

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Anyone Can Be A Geek…

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Yes…even those who seem most ungeek-like…

Whether it be over muscle cars, wrestling, board games…or even My Little Pony®

To look at me…cowboy boots, aviators and pickup truck; you’d probably never peg me for being into Manga…but I love it.

I also like Pro Wrestling…love it in fact; could spend hours analyzing matches.

I doubt I am people’s first choice for being a being a gamer…and admittedly it took me years to embrace the fact that I am, indeed, a gamer.

Thing is, everybody has their thing…that thing that really gets their Geek-O-Meters seriously going…

Whatever your thing is…provided it’s not predatory…and provided that it’s…well…legal…

Embrace the Geekdom…

You are in good company!

 

 

It’s me isn’t it…

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I have spent the majority of my life feeling as if I am somehow less…

Never quite good enough…

Rejected repeatedly…

As time goes on and the more you are rejected the less inclined you are to put yourself out there because you start to think…why am I even bothering…? I know this all too well. You can only take so much rejection…and as much as we say No = Next Opportunity, Fail = First Attempt in Learning to keep the positivity up, we all have that voice that says…Give it up mate, you’re not getting anywhere with this.

Sometimes these beliefs are etched way down deep in your mind; put there by someone who was important to you…or at least important to you at that time. Parents are the main perpetrators here; usually well meaning, the results can mean for years of debilitating behaviour. My mom has always been obsessed with her weight, and thus has through the course of my life and that of my sister’s to make us hit both extremes, my sister trying every new fad for eating healthy and me not giving a shit and eating whatever I wanted without much though to calories, and using food as a method to suppress any feelings I might have that isn’t of cheerful positivity. My dad rarely if ever told me he was proud of me…I think I was 25 when he first told me he was proud of me. So picture a kid trying to make her dad proud…and seemingly falling short of the mark every time because there was just no showing of it. Mom was the same…I could do better…and well we can all do better, but every once and while, someone does like to know if they have done a good job.

While I maintain the air of someone who doesn’t actually care what others think…I do still care that I have some value.

 

 

 

 

Laws of Attraction…The Power of Positivity…

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I recently took part in an online ‘seminar’ about the Laws of Attraction…

90 minutes of what was essentially an infomercial, like those ones on late night television. Now while I didn’t buy the product their selling, I am intrigued enough to wonder about if the Laws of Attraction do work, do visualizations work for improving your life?

Now while I can get behind getting the negative thoughts in your head out of there and replacing them with positive thoughts, is that really what is going to attract what you want? Are thoughts enough? Or do you need to manifest those thoughts into something those outside of ourselves can actually see.

Apparently the Law of Attraction – according to answers.com –  is basically one of the 7 Super Laws exists in this world. Basically put The Law Of Attraction states that everything “attracts” or manifest based on our human brain results of thoughts.

It would seem a rather loft, worldly view…and perhaps it is…and perhaps it is not.

As you go though life, your visualizations will change…for what you want at 45 might not be what you wanted at 25. Me, I wanted to live in a hacienda on the beach of Puerto Vallarta and run a fishing charter company with my dad when I was 25, now, at almost 45; I just want a job I can hang on to longer than 18 months, and a stronger foundation in God.

If visualization works for you…wonderful…

If it doesn’t…that’s okay too…